I do sin, but I'm not the devil.

I HATE MATH.
helluh.
I'm so frustrated. Words can't even begin to describe what I'm feeling right now. I'm SO fucking pissed. Ugh. FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck
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ugh.

James Franco

turns me on. big time.
haha :]

make it all better when I'm feelin' sad.

Last night was amazzzzzing! We all went to the Black and White Party in Berkeley. It was pretty awesome. It sucked they wouldn't let us outside but whatever. Ohmygod. And we were SO sweaty. It was disgusting. Other wise the night was pretty great except for one or two things but I let it go.
Other things were talked about and situated...sorta. A few things are left to be said, but it's all good again. It's things ended the way they did, so much was left unsaid which would leave this weird empty gap of questions and 'what ifs'. So I'm definitely in a better mood than I was yesterday afternoon. Anyways, Kana is over right now and we're gonna go out in a little bit and kick it at Starbucks or something.
I LOVE sunny days :]

that's the dream I'm working on

this little girl is truly amazing:




Everyone keeps asking me what I want to do with my life once I graduate. I'm not entirely sure. Right now, it's culinary, but I might change my mind. I just want to be happy. That's my goal in life.

again, with false affection.

"Never ever apologize for giving your best in a relationship that just didn't work out."

From: What a woman should never apologize for

I completely agree.

marlon brando

Today was sensational. Well, for the most part at least. I can't say everything because then it'd be completely apparent who I'm talking about. Buuuut I can say this: "Oh my god. Don't do that! I'm starting to hyperventilate!" :]
Oh my god. Marlon Brando. SOOOO fine. Even though he became all fat and ugly later on, he was beaaaautiful when he was younger.

driver's ed

officially started that about an hour ago. :]




hahahahaha ohmygod.

lovestoned.

"A girl and a guy can be just friends but at one point or another, they will fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever." -Dave Matthews

Stripped of all make up, no need for fancy clothes. no cover ups, push ups...

"the body is meant to be seen, not all covered up." -Marilyn Monroe


"You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts"
-Don't Speak; No Doubt

possibly one of my all time favorite songs.

mr. rogers

toldyaso

"Make me come, Fluffy"-Josie

Today went by helluh fast. Like, actually. It really doesn't feel like a Friday though. I keep thinking that it's like...Wednesday or something. Of course certain things happened today that really pissed me the fuck off. But whatever. I'm totally done with that whole situation now. If you're not willing enough to talk to me about certain things, then you're definitely no longer worth any of my time.
Anyways, on the bright side I hung out with Josie, Arin, and Kana after school. :]

Turn your volume UP!

primer amor;

Yo te contaré, una historia
De como un puertorriqueño me robó el corazón
Nunca más he vuelto a amar de esa manera
Quizás, jamás lo haré
Es la historia de mi primer amor
Era buenmozo
Con grandes y profundos ojos marrones
Un bailarín
Juntos, nos perdimos en el ritmo del amor
Así es como comenzó








amazing yeah? haha

Happy Birthday, Remy :]

It's Remy's 16th birthday!

isn't she just too cute?
basically today was helluh chill.
we ate blueberry crumb pie during lunch and had a fuckin' good ass time after school. so yeah. we're already planning for the fucccckin' weekend! :] haaay. [we as in us. ha]
I'm super fucking distracted right now and I'm attempting to multitask...which is fucking failing...miserably.
Other wise things are going well.ish. Or whatever. I'm managing.




"Ones first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love."-Elizabeth Aston
I love this. I don't know why, but I really do.

last night:

The girls and I went to Epicentre!
Before though, we met up with Gillian, Camille, and Natalie. Theeeen went and did our thing, thennnn walked to the community center! I was stumbling pretty bad so one of the guys made me walk in a straight line. Jesus. haha Well...I passed...ish. The first hour totally sucked though. I don't think I need to explain why. haha Oh well, I know better now and refuse to do what I did again. Things got WAAAAY better after that little incident though. Daaaancing till I couldn't feel anything. Literally. Ew and everyone was super sweaty. hahaha I'm so grossed out by sweat. so yeah, other things happened but I really don't think they need to be mentioned here.

an ocean size love.

I have a lot to say today. Or at least I feel like I do right now.
I'm definitely ready to set things straight with a few people. There's no need to lose someone I love over something incredibly vapid.
In the past two months I've learned way more than I would have ever expected. I'm finally learning to love myself as a whole. And learning to love others too. More than before. ;] I'm loving someone I shouldn't be loving. I'm completely apprehensive about what to do. But then again, love terrifies me. Except for the fact that I'm completely obsessed and infatuated with the idea of it.


I'm completely stoked for Friday. I really need to go out and have fun. It's been forever since I've done so. And I'll watch myself this time. It's not going to be like last time at all. I'll be in a better mood. :]
I'm starting driver's ed soon. Finally! I can't wait to drive Remy, Kana, Josie, and Alana home when they're all completely smashed, leaning out the window, singing some Katy Perry song at the top of their lungs at twelve o' clock on a Friday night in Albany. Hahaha :]

I have been careless and I've been warned.

Everyone has been acting helluh weird lately. And I'm fighting with people I'd rather not fight with. People I don't want to talk to are consistently talking to me and people I'm trying to sort out things with are never around. It's only Tuesday and this week has been dragging on forever. Enough complaining though.

Excited for Friday though. Well, kinda. Hopefully it's not like last time.
Black and White party on the 27th. Definitely going. :]