It could have been you

I love how my horoscopes are always dead on.
If the time has come to say goodbye, say it and move on. The longer you let discomfort and weirdness simmer, the more difficult it will be to live with your conscience. Make a clean and honest cut and you won't have any regrets.

Okay, okay...so it was a little cheesy, but it's true.
It's morning time, so I don't have time to say much because I have to go to school in about half an hour, but I just wanted to say that I loooove Joss Stone! She's amazing and so beautiful.
End of story.

Leave me alone; I'm lonely.

It seems like my teenage hormones and my brain are having some sort of wacked out battle. Half of my brain is being completely logical and is telling me NOT to rush into a relationship right now. While the other half is all mushy, gushy, and crushing all over the place for no apparent reason. Truthfully, I don't want to be with anyone. It takes so much effort to maintain a relationship, and I just don't have the time or the patience to do so. I have other things in my life going on right now that are a lot more important than some stupid boy who just wants to stick it in a warm hole. Also, I get attached easily and have a difficult time letting go. Sure, apart of me misses holding hands, being intimate with someone, waking up to good morning texts and falling asleep to goodnight phone calls, and just being a "normal" couple, but I know at this age boys are fucking stupid and immature. It takes FOREVER until they grow up (so I've heard). I'm trying so hard to stay away from them, but whenever I do, they come flocking, and it makes it extremely difficult to concentrate. Right now is the time for me to be with my friends, do well in school, and get a job. I had my boy drama Freshman and Sophomore year. They can wait a little while longer. I'm in no rush.
I'm rooting for the logical side of my brain to win.


Speaking of immaturity: What you did was totally unnecessary and completely immature. Grow-the-fuck-up already. "Bitch I never cared" Setting your AIM status about me isn't going to hurt me, or anything like that. If anything, I was extremely pissed that you would be SO ignorant to say such a thing, and then I laughed because I remembered how stupid you are. So stop acting like I'm all affected and traumatized, because I'm not. If you have shit to say, stop being a fucking pussy and say it to my face. I want to bite off your fucking head. Stay the fuck out of my life.

Rain, rain

I love this weather!
Rain, Rain, Rain! Rain more!
I want it to thunder and whatnot!
C'mon, mother nature, c'mon.



Anyways, it's Homecoming week! Whoot! So far, it's helluh fun...even though it's only the first day...I can't wait for Friday though. Lip sync, red and white day, and the football game. Sweet sauce :]

Just make it easy- you're my enemy, you fast talker

It's just not fair. Why can you be the biggest asshole on the entire planet and then try to pretend like everything is okay, and that you're not the bad guy? Yet, if I say the wrong thing, I'm just another crazy bitch. Yeah, I fucked up. I know I did, but you just fucked me over. What I said was what I meant and that's not going to change. I know I sent mixed signals, but I know you understood the point I was trying to get across. I'm glad I physically got up and left. I've been wasting my time. I was wasting my time. I have lost all of my respect for you and I don't know why I was pretending I didn't. Just because you sell all of Albany their drugs, doesn't make you the shit. So I'm officially over this whole "asshole" stage or whatever it is I've been going through. I've been screwed over so many times, I think I've finally learned my lesson. I'm bound to make more mistakes, but hopefully this one won't repeat itself again.
It's not complicated, it's over.

No glove, no love.

Why are so many people rushing into the same exact thing?! It's so stupid! Plus, they're not even doing it for the right reasons. I mean, I guess that depends on your definition of 'right'. Sex is sex. Big fucking deal, I'm all for it -let's go- but it's annoying when people are just fucking, just to fuck. Especially if you're a girl. Do you think sleeping with him is going to make him like you more or maybe gain his respect? Probably not. This doesn't classify every case though! Some girls are the pimps, (my mother was one) not whores. And I totally respect that. If you're fucking someone just because you get something from it, then do it, but keep it classy. Maybe this makes me a prude or whatever, but I don't care. There's so many diseases and gross things out there! It's so easy to catch something if you're not careful. No glove, no love. That's definitely a must.
Girls are sooooooooo stupid! Why can't they just be satisfied and comfortable in their own skin? Seriously! Why do you need the approval of a man(or girl) to tell you that you're beautiful or skinny or whatever. You should be able to find that in yourself without a man. Don't get me wrong, I think it's great to be complimented often, but not to the point where you're relying on others to boost your self esteem.

Get Some!

Homecoming is next week. I'm pretty excited, I guess. I don't know. Once it gets closer, I'll probably be all riled up and what not.

Why are some people in such a rush to be in a relationship? I really don't get it. It's ridiculous. I know a person who has had three girlfriends in the past two months. It's just pathetic. I feel like I don't have any respect for people like that. I mean, seriously? Have some confidence in yourself. Sheesh. That's all I have to say.

Cold.

I went on a photo-shoot today with Remy, Alana, Josie, Tavi, and Arin. It was pretty fun. I got the pictures I needed for photography. So yeah. The weather is getting colder. I hate it. Except...I like it too. Does that make any sense? Sorta. I love HOT weather. I'm going to move somewhere really warm one day. Last night was awesome though. And also a bit strange. The weirdest shit always happens to me and rem when we go on certain adventures. It's ridiculous! Anyways, I don't really feel like talking about it.
Buuut here are some pictures from today that I enjoyed :] I still need to photoshop some:

Today was a Monday

Today was a Monday.
Monday's are always somewhere in between good and bad.
I've been having this overwhelming sensation to write something remarkable and I have all these thoughts and ideas, yet once I sit down to actually write-everything goes out the window. It's becoming extremely frustrating.
Also, some things are quickly coming to a stop. I guess in a way I'm pretty much over it. I've been hurt so much by this one thing, that I no longer have the energy to be hurt. It's like my body is defending itself by becoming numb. Or something like that. I wish I could explain it better.

You're beautiful! You're beautiful! And you're especially beautiful!

Yesterday was LOVEFEST! It was absolutely amazing. Except for the fact we stood in line for over 2 hours trying to get in. Anyways, the music was so fucking rad and there were SO many cute guys. Oh my god. It basically made up for the fact that Albany has none. It pretty much met up to all my expectations and more. I only wished it was warmer :[ I left around six because I was freezing. Basically I'm entirely satisfied and exhausted. Now it's time for a totally stressful week!
Today was nice though! I saw Whip It. I officially LOVE that movie. Ellen Page and Drew Barrymore are my heros. Also, I love Drew's hair in the movie. Haha of course. I definitely recomend that you go see it or something.
I think I'm going to start writing again. It's been helluh long and I have stuff to say.