Lolita

yes, please.

hmph.

I don't ask for much.

i am quite impatient.

"The idea of waiting for something makes it even more exciting."-Andy Warhol

Oh.my.god. Please come back and live in my subconscious...and possibly even my reality? :]

so rich, so pretty

I feel good today.
I like it. :]

Michael Kors 'Vaughn' Platform Pump

I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! I want these! In black, size 11! So badly! It's time I embrace my tallness and make myself taller...occasionally.
Except they're like, $130 and then some...a girl can dream right? Or get a job...either one works.

the individualist

Ah, the enneagram. For quite some time now I've been meaning to blog about it, but I just never got around to it. Well, now I am. So, I went to this site: http://www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram and did a little research. A while ago, a friend and I figured out my dominate type and my wing type too. So, just to double check, I went and did a little more research. Turns out I'm definitely four with a five wing(she was right.) "Fours can manage to feel superior to others while also secretly harboring some degree of longing and envy."
I can not begin to tell you how true this is.
Okay, let's list all the things that I am, and fours are...to prove that I'm a four:
*Fours are emotionally complex and highly sensitive-SO true.
*Easily feel misunderstood and under appreciated-under appreciated, definitely
*They have a tendency to withdraw in the face of a world that seems harsh or crude, and are often somewhat moody or temperamental.-Definitely.
*They are emotionally centered and spend much of their lives immersed in their internal mental landscapes, where they feel free to cultivate and analyse their feelings.-Sure, I guess.
*Fours are somewhat melancholic by disposition, and under stress tend to lapse into depression.-I don't think I'm clinically depressed, but sure, I get that sometimes.
*Tend to be self-absorbed- Yeaaah, sometimes.
*Easily give way to a self-indulgence which they perceive as being fully justified as a way to compensate for the general lack of pleasure they experience in their lives.-Yes. Definitely.
*Rather than look for practical solutions to their difficulties, Fours are prone to fantasizing about a savior who will rescue them from their unhappiness.-Nah. Not really. I just day dream a lot.

And basically, I have a 5 wing. Which basically means I'm not going into what that one means because I'm tired and want to sleep.

goodnight.

you give me feveeer

Happy Valentine's Day! :]
Anyways, I don't have big plans for today, but it's all good. I got a lot done and finished an entire book (Sunday's at Tiffany's). Plus, I did some baking for my little trip to the snow tomorrow. It's been a good day.
I saw Dear John the other day. WORST MOVIE EVER. Do not see it. I honestly wanted to laugh through the entire movie, the acting was horrible...except for two scenes where I cried. Anyways, I love ski week, I get to sleep in :] Oh, also I chopped off basically all of my hair. It's SUPER short now. Literally like Josephine Baker. I'm still getting used to it, but for the most part, I like it.


agreed.

P.S. I think that you're pretty damn cute. Not gonna lie.

chase this light with me

"Fashion can and should encourage all girls to feel beautiful, rather than inadequate, in their own skin. As a culture, we should realize that while a thing of beauty is a joy forever, other things are a joy forever, too, such as education, kindness, humor. We should celebrate those things as much as we do looks."

"A few years ago I read a book called The Body Project, by a historian named Joan Jacobs Brumberg. It's a collection of girls' diaries throughout American history. Once upon a time, those diaries were full of ambition to be better, kinder people. But now teenage girls' diary entries are all about being thin. They equate thinness with strength and goodness. Weight loss is seen as a direct correlation with virtue."- Hungry, by Crystal Renn


I love this book. It's teaching me a lot.

the best one of the best one's.

warning signs.

I'm abnormally emotional lately. For many reasons. Today sucked, but mostly because my father is engaged to a conniving mega-bitch, who decided to paint the living room lilac and light blue. What kind of white trash girly shit is that? But mostly, it's because he hid it from me for two weeks and even told my sister not to tell me. Honestly? Fuck you. Why would you not tell ME? Or ask me if what I think about it? Or ask how I feel about you getting married? I'm your DAUGHTER. You're only daughter and you didn't even tell me for two whole weeks. So much for "family". You're making a huge mistake. It's not going to last, and when it ends in divorce (like most marriages do) she's going to take half of everything. Just the way Caroline did with Grandpa. You're repeating the pattern. Maybe not the alcoholic part, but everything else. Plus, you don't even like her! You're just afraid of being lonely. Why? Because you have abandonment issues from your childhood. But so what? Everyone has abandonment issues. Get over it. You proposed to mom after two months of being together, and it took you eight years to propose to this woman. I think that says something. Not to mention you're basically supporting her AND her three kids. She hasn't worked in a year! A whole year you have been providing for her, and yet, I don't know why. You're providing for someone you don't even love. I remember you saying 8 years ago that you were "too old" to find someone, and that "everyone is already married". Dad, you were 30. That's when people start getting married. You just stayed with the first person you met because you didn't want to be alone. You could have done so much better, but instead you chose someone with issues who can't even manage them in the slightest bit. Good job, dad. So, that's why I didn't say "congratulations" the other night, because she's no good and ruining your life. You're miserable. Why don't you see that?

oh, just another twilight fan moment. nbd.

I found this somewhere a while ago, I just don't remember where. Anyways, yuuum. Too bad it's not Taylor Lautner. :]

vroom, vroom.

http://rachelmcbaker.blogspot.com
---> new blog about my baking creations! Yummm. Check it out, maybe even follow it? I'm not too sure what I'm doing, but whatever. I'll figure something out.
Anyways, I can technically get my license on Saturday, BUTTTT that's not going to happen! I still need one more driving lesson and I need to set up the day I'm going to take my test. I'm stoked! I'll just be driving around in my wonder woman car(which is invisible by the way) until I actually get one, unless my father gives me the Honda. So all I can do right now is stay positive and hope I get my license before March! Oh! I forgot to talk about this past weekend. I would say it was pretty damn fun. I went to the Cheesecake Factory with everyone (and Remy's camp friend too)! I haven't eaten that much in a lonnng time, but I was going to get cheesecake (reason why we went there) but then I definitely didn't. I'm so ANGRY at myself! Whatever, I have some recipes I wanna try out soon, so it's okay. I'm getting breakfast with Tavi and possibly Lauren tomorrow morning at the Inn Kensington because we don't start school till almost 1pm because of CHASEE testing or whatever. I'm stoked. :] Also, one last thing. I have all these creative ideas for photography. I need some models. My unofficial plans for the weekend.