There are some lines that should not be crossed. Telling people who they are, is one of them. I'm older now, I know who I am, I'm not still figuring myself out-- I'm past that stage. I've made mistakes, had experiences I never want to experience again, done things I regret, and learned from most of it. I've learned to let the little things go, and fight for what I believe in. Growing up, I've been taught to only accept the love I think I deserve and never settle for anything less. Of course, not knowing everything, I've settled for less, believing it was what I deserved. And now that it's over, I'll never go back to that. I want more than that. I deserve more than that. It doesn't make me a conceited bitch, it shows that I have some self-respect for myself. I refuse to let someone take advantage of me. Just because my experiences may not be as adventurous as someone else's, doesn't make them any less. Everybody's life is different, and no one likes being compared to someone else who lives a completely different life than them. People can't go around claiming they know everything about one person because they never, ever truly know what goes on behind closed doors.
Sometimes I wonder when I'm going to hit the ceiling.
First I wanna say I love you and don't get mad at me for the things I'm about to say.
ReplyDeleteYou say you're not trying to find yourself as if someone was trying to find themselves it's a bad thing. Remember we're still very young and it's good if we're tryna to figure ourselves out because we have years to go before all of our experiences and wisdom kicks in. It's okay with being unsure of who you are. I'm not tryna to tell you who you are I'm just sayin that at this age there's no need to hurry up and figure yourself out.
And maybe I don't know what goes on behind closed doors but that't becuz you don't let me in. I just wanna figure you out. And that's why I constantly question and challenge you: so that I can relate to you better, not to criticize you.