stay gold, pony boy, stay gold

I'm ready for something new. Something dangerous and exciting. I want to jump off a cliff into the ocean with no hesitation. I want to dye my hair some crazy ass color and cut it completely different. I need this Summer to be a change. I need something new. Things in my life are becoming too repetitive. Or something like that. I want to get pierced, I want to drive, I want to take a trip down the coast in some 1960's hippie van, I want to get a job, I want to meet new people, I want to do things I've never done before...the list goes on. I'm not looking for a Summer love, or anything lame like that. I'm just looking to find something new. I just need time figuring shit out. I want to be with my friends, and I want all of this bullshit to disappear. But at the same time, I want things to stay the same. I don't want change...except I do. Fuck.
Things are going to be okay.


P.S. I really fucking miss you.